What advice would you give to your teenage self?
What I Would Tell My Teenage Self
If I could sit down with my teenage self, I wouldn’t try to change her. I wouldn’t tell her to quiet her thoughts or soften her intensity. I wouldn’t tell her to take an easier path or to stop asking questions that made people uncomfortable. But I would tell her a few things—things I wish she had known, things that might have made the weight she carried a little lighter.
1. Your ability to see patterns is a gift—trust it.
You have always seen the connections that others miss. You notice the unspoken rules that shape behavior, the hidden structures behind power, the way ideas ripple through time. The world will try to convince you that things are isolated, that conflict is random, that history doesn’t repeat itself—but you already know better. Hold onto that. Your ability to see beneath the surface will one day become the foundation of everything you build.
2. You are not “too much”—you are ahead of your time.
You will be told that you think too much, feel too much, care too much. Some will say your intensity is intimidating, that your mind moves too fast, that your presence is overwhelming. They are wrong. The problem is not that you are too much—the problem is that most people aren’t ready for what you understand. One day, you will find people who see you and say, “Finally, someone who gets it.”
3. You don’t have to save everyone.
You will feel the urge to carry people—to pull them out of pain, to fix what’s broken, to hold everything together. But you are not responsible for healing what others refuse to face. You will burn yourself out trying to carry people who have no intention of moving. Learn to recognize the difference between helping and sacrificing yourself.
4. Conflict is not failure.
You will challenge ideas that others take for granted. You will ask questions that make people uncomfortable. Some will react with anger, others with silence, and some will turn away entirely. That does not mean you are wrong. It means you are asking the right questions. Growth is uncomfortable. You are not here to make people comfortable—you are here to reveal truth.
5. Your intuition is a survival tool.
When something feels off, it is off. You will be told to second-guess yourself, to “give people the benefit of the doubt,” to silence that gut feeling. Do not ignore it. Your intuition is a form of intelligence. Trust it like you trust the patterns in the world around you.
6. You are allowed to want love without settling for control.
Not everyone who claims to love you will know how to honor you. Love should feel like expansion, not restriction. You do not need to shrink to be loved. If someone asks you to dim your light, they are not your person. Real love will see all of you and not flinch.
7. Rest is not laziness.
You will push yourself harder than most, because your mind is always building, analyzing, deconstructing. But you are not a machine. Your work, your vision, your creations—none of them will be sustainable if you do not allow yourself to rest. Burnout is not a badge of honor.
8. You will build something no one has seen before.
There is no roadmap for what you are creating. That’s why it feels lonely sometimes. You are not lost—you are ahead of the curve. The world may not understand you now, but that does not mean your vision is wrong. Keep going. One day, people will look at what you’ve built and wonder how they ever lived without it.
And when that day comes, you won’t resent the struggles—it will all make sense. The world wasn’t ready for you then. But it will be.
To My 16-Year-Old Self,
I see you. I see the weight you’re carrying, the questions you’re asking that no one seems to want to answer. I see how deeply you feel everything—how the world’s fractures press into you, how you ache for things to make sense. I see the way you refuse to accept shallow truths, the way you reach for something real even when it hurts.
I need you to know something: You make it.
You don’t disappear. You don’t drown under the heaviness of it all. You don’t lose yourself, even when it feels like you might. You become something more than you ever imagined.
The fire inside you? It never goes out. It softens in some places, grows brighter in others, but it never dies. One day, you will use it to light the way for others.
I want you to know that you are not broken. The way you think, the way you feel, the way you question—these are not flaws. They are your power. The world will try to convince you to be smaller, quieter, easier. Don’t listen. Everything you are now is exactly what you are meant to be.
You are going to build things no one has ever seen before. You are going to find people who understand you without you having to explain. You are going to love in ways that are deep and wild and free. And most importantly, you are going to love yourself the way you always deserved to be loved.
I promise, one day, you will wake up and realize that you are no longer just surviving. You are living.
And I am so, so proud of you.
With all the love and certainty you never got from anyone else,
Me.
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